A Complete Guide to Exercise with POTS

Disclaimer: These posts are speaking from my personal experience and I’m trying to outline what has worked for me. I know everyone’s cases are different, so I want to respect that, and say up front that I know my methods my not work for others. By no means am I looking to push my experience as the only way that can work for people, nor am I trying to say that anyone is wrong or weak for not pushing through! I have tremendous respect for everyone fighting through POTS, and I am only looking to inject some more strength, resilience, knowledge, and positivity into an already incredible community. I’m also just looking to share my story and connect with others. So, thank you for reading today, and know that you are amazing, and I wish you the best on your personal journey!

In my last post (click on these links for more information about them), I talked about how meditation has had incredible benefits for my mind, body, and spirit, and how it has had a profound positive impact on my health and well-being. Despite all of those benefits, I do not believe my meditation practice has had the most significant impact on me in the last two years. That distinction belongs to exercise.

From shortly after the time I was diagnosed with POTS up until today, I have had a consistent exercise routine of some form. Exercise brings me a dopamine rush and gives me a great bodily feeling. It gives me unbeatable confidence in myself as I continue to better myself through how I feel and how I look, and it’s a motivator that helps me blow past my goals. Exercise is a constant rock in my life. I know I can always go to the gym, almost no matter how I am feeling, and I will come out feeling great. I journal every night, and I start out with an overall “grade” or feeling of the day. If I exercised earlier that day, I am almost guaranteed to write that it was a great one — even if most of the day itself wasn’t good!

So, today I am excited to share with you something that changed the course of the way I lived. I am going to give a comprehensive review and how-to with regards to the Levine Protocol, which is an exercise program designed specifically for those with POTS. I’ve gone through the entire Levine Protocol and I can assure you from experience that it works. How do I know? In late 2015, I was struggling to make it through a session on the exercise bike, and I would get dizzy when I stood up and walked around. 2 years later, I was competing for the top men’s club rowing team in the country at the University of Michigan, symptom-free after grueling hour-long workouts. Let me tell you how exercise and the Levine Protocol can change your life.

I was the third person in my family diagnosed with POTS. From watching my brother and sister go through it before me, I knew consistent exercise was an essential step on the road to getting better. I was interested in specifics on how I could improve my health and happiness, and I always loved scientific research. My parents introduced me to a study done by Dr. Benjamin Levine, a cardiologist in Dallas, Texas. The study, titled “Exercise in the Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome” stated there are currently no proven drug-based treatments for POTS, but physical training has been shown to increase exercise performance and decrease tachycardia in POTSies. On a deeper level, 

“Short-term (i.e., 3 months) exercise training increases cardiac size and mass, blood volume, and VO2 peak in POTS patients. Exercise performance is improved after training. Specifically, stroke volume is greater and heart rate is lower at any given VO2 during exercise after training versus before training. Heart rate recovery from peak exercise is significantly faster after training, indicating an improvement in autonomic circulatory control. These results suggest that patients with POTS have no intrinsic abnormality of heart rate regulation during exercise. The tachycardia in POTS is due to a reduced stroke volume. Cardiac remodeling and blood volume expansion associated with exercise training increase physical fitness and improve exercise performance in these patients.”

Basically, this study says that exercise can help all parts of your heart function and autonomic regulation and that it is possible for people with POTS to exercise and condition themselves over time. 

Dr. Levine didn’t want to just prove that exercise is an effective treatment for POTS. He decided to develop an exercise program specifically for POTS patients that had research-backed benefits. The program he developed, called the Levine Protocol, is a combination of recumbent cardio days and weight training days. Every week, you increase the difficulty of the workout slightly, through slightly longer exercise session or a higher resistance level. After only 4 months following the program, you are expected to start using a treadmill or elliptical for your exercise. As someone who followed the entire protocol, I can tell you it was extremely rewarding to power through the first four months and work my way up to running. Even though you may not think it is possible, it really is, and you just have to believe and keep pushing through! 

Dysautonomia International has a full guide on their website to the Levine Protocol, with a calendar that outlines the full 8-month program and a specific exercise plan. Specific stretches are also featured in the plan. It is available here, and I highly recommend you download and read through it. You can even print it out and give it a shot! I’m going to talk about some of the key points in the Protocol, tell you what changes I recommend, and also relate it to my exercise experience over the last two years.   

First off, in terms of setting yourself up for success with this program, you’ll have to do a bit of work before you even start in the gym. The program talks about getting committed and getting your family to read through the program before you start. This is an essential step — it will be much easier for you to be disciplined and follow your plan when you have positive support and understanding from your family. For example, if you are really not feeling a workout one day, a family member can give you that extra push that you need to get to the gym. Actually going to a gym is a huge part too. If you can join a gym, you’ll have easy access to all the equipment you’ll need for your program. The other benefit, which might be even better, is the motivation you get from people around you. When you are in an environment where everyone else is working hard and pushing through, you’ll be motivated to finish that set and push through the pain! Making friends with trainers or other people at the gym can also help, as they can help you when you don’t know how to do an exercise, and then also provide you with motivation and support. Find a gym take that next step to integrate yourself into a community!

On the topic of the program itself: If you’ve looked at the schedule for the Levine Protocol, you’ll notice that it has you working out Monday-Friday and then taking Saturday and Sunday off. The most important thing is to make sure you get your five days a week in, no matter what days you’re doing each exercise. The program even mentions that you can combine your strength days with two cardio days, and if you really need to, that is okay to do. However, exercise is one of the most important components of getting back to full health with POTS, and it should be a priority before most other things in your life. Additionally, especially when just starting out, it is often too much on your body to do two modes of training in one day. Spread it out!

My personal recommendation is to do cardio on Monday, strength training on Tuesday, cardio on Wednesday, off on Thursday, strength training on Friday, cardio on Saturday, and off on Sunday. This way, your schedule is much more balanced. Your body gets much-deserved rest days on Thursday and Sunday to recover from a few days of exercise. Additionally, if you take Saturday and Sunday off, you may get a bit deconditioned and struggle in your cardio workout on Monday. I am all about moderation and balance with POTS, especially with exercise, and I think splitting up your workout blocks with rest days in between is the best way to go about it. But, as I’ve said before, whatever works for you is the best way for sure! Keeping on schedule and just showing up for the workouts is absolutely the most important step in establishing a consistent exercise routine.

Looking at the cardio component, I recommend trying out the rowing machine if you can. Most gyms will have a rower and having rowed for the first time this past fall myself, I can tell you rowing is a fantastic workout for your legs and core. A how-to link is listed on the Levine Protocol document, but I think this video also does a great job explaining — it’s from a 5-time Olympian! On the other hand, using the exercise bike was my preference when starting on Levine, and the bike is definitely a great way to build up your stamina and leg muscles. Some people think an added bonus is that you can bike while watching your favorite show on TV or your phone. That may work for certain people, but I always noticed I was not keeping up with my target heart rate when I was paying too much attention to something on the TV in front of me. So, from personal experience, I recommend putting on some of your favorite songs or some pump-up music and giving that quick cardio session all of your focus. After you’re done, you can always treat yourself with an episode of that show! 

One thing that’s not on the Levine Protocol is a movement or mobility practice. The warm-up they prescribe definitely helps prepare the muscles for a workout, but there is no focus on preparing the muscles and joints to move properly. I currently have a movement practice I perform daily, and I like to spend 10-15 minutes before every one of my workouts doing some mobility drills to warm my muscles up, set my joints in the right positions, and increase my range of motion.

There is an abundance of mobility drills out there, but a few that I think are most essential are the thoracic bridge, the cat-camel stretch, and the downward facing dog. All three of these movements activate the core in some way and help to stretch the upper and lower body.

If you want to learn from the world’s foremost expert on mobility, check out Kelly Starrett and his website mobilitywod.com for resources and tutorials on mobility and massage sequences. Here are six drills he recommends doing daily. Another resource I like to use is the YouTube channel of Luka Hocevar, a strength and performance coach based in Seattle, WA. He has all sorts of mobility exercises you can use for specific parts of your body that may be tight or sore, and you can pick and choose what you want to use. Using any of his movements for a warm-up or a daily mobility practice can make a definite impact on your body function.

A different part of functional movement and overall physical health lies in your the health of your muscles, otherwise known as soft tissue. The best way to repair soft tissues is through foam rolling or self-myofascial release, which can be done with a foam roller or lacrosse ball. I won’t get too far into the details on this one, as there is a lot to cover and this article does a fantastic job explaining how the science and how-to. I use a lacrosse ball on my deltoids (big muscle below you back shoulder blades), pectorals (your chest), hip flexors (right below your hips on the side of your body) and under the arch on my foot on a daily basis. This video gives a visual of all of those areas, as well as a tutorial on using the lacrosse ball for massage. I can tell you one of my biggest pain points has always been in the tightness of my muscles, but foam rolling and lacrosse ball massages have made a tremendous difference in how my muscles feel and perform.

You’ll notice I just placed a lot of emphasis on mobility, but for those with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome or Thoracic Outlet Syndrome (which I have a form of), maintaining proper body movement and function is essential to better exercise performance as well as injury and pain prevention in everyday life. So many people with POTS have other stuff going on too, and taking care of your body through mobility and massage will make you feel better overall — I guarantee it.

We just discussed preparation, cardio, and mobility, so now we can talk about my favorite part of exercise — strength training! 

The exercises suggested by the Levine Protocol are the seated leg press, leg curl, leg extension, calf raise, chest press, and seated row. They all involve some sort of lifting, and lifting for POTSies keeps your heart healthy and your legs strong! Let’s check out the exercises in the program.

The seated leg press works your quadriceps, your butt, your thighs, and leg stabilizers, and is a great way for beginners to build leg strength without much pressure on the back or spine. If laying down with your feet above you while performing the leg press makes you symptomatic, a great alternative to try is the hack squat, which can be found in most gyms. 

The leg curl works the hamstrings in isolation but has some issues that are detailed here. It’s not the worst thing to do in the world, but there are definitely healthier alternatives. The bridges exercise shown in the Levine Protocol is an overall better exercise, and you can find even more alternatives online if you want to keep exploring. 

The leg extension is the one exercise I highly recommend you don’t do. It can reduce muscle activity, increase the chance of a torn ACL, and reduce functional movement in the legs. Here’s the science. The good news is, there are some great alternatives: Bulgarian split squats and then bodyweight lunges and squats. The latter two are tougher for people with POTS because they’re standing exercises, but they are definitely possible to build up to. Also, Bulgarian split squats are difficult to start with, but don’t get discouraged. You can always do 3 sets of 1 rep, 3×3 reps, or 3×5 reps, building your way up to a 3×8 or 3×10. 

I have no problem with calf raises, chest press, or seated rows; in fact, these are all exercises I perform in my current routine. The last two are great for building the upper body! 

If you deal with tightness in your neck, back, or shoulders, or a forward tilted head posture, you can also add face pulls into your routine. These are more difficult than the other exercises but are great for opening up the upper back and getting your shoulders back into position. You can also perform them kneeling if standing makes you symptomatic. 

For the abs component of the program, I disagree with the program’s suggestion of sit-ups and back extensions — here’s an article from Harvard Medical School on why planks are the new best way to work the core. This is a how-to on planks if you’re not familiar. Another exercise mentioned in that previous article is the bird-dog, which works the abs and the back. If you can stick to bird dogs and planks, and build up core strength to be able to do a side plank, I think that’s more than enough. 

Here are other exercises to work the core if you’re looking for variety or easier exercises than a plank. As to the recommendation for pilates, I’ve done pilates once in my life and I felt great after the session. I’ve only heard great things about pilates and recommend you give a class with a certified trainer a try if you want.

Mayo says in their program you should record the weights that you lift, and I am a big fan of keeping track of your progress. Not only will you know how much you’ll be able to lift every time you come into the gym, it’s also motivating to see you make progress with your weight over time. Here’s a template I made for the program, and you can use this to track your progress over time. If you’re going to use this template, please make a copy of it first by going to File -> Make a Copy. If one person edits the original, it will result in no one else being able to use the blank template, so it’s very important to make that copy!

For anyone who feels they are past the Levine protocol or want a higher-level lifting program to start, this program is the beginner program I used when I wanted to move on from Levine. It is a great full-body program for both strength and aesthetics, and I recommend everyone take a look at the introduction of the post for valuable information about the basics of strength training. When I was on this program, I would go three days on, one day off, and would do about twenty minutes on the treadmill to start out every day. I ended up spending over 2 hours at the gym for all of these workouts, and have since realized I don’t need to spend all that time to get good results. However, I know the time I invested in my workouts immediately after my visit to the Mayo Clinic was crucial to my success in getting back to school, activities, and living healthily and happily again. It was definitely all worth it.

To put my journey with exercise in perspective, I am only 3 years removed from completing the Levine Protocol and exercise is one of the cornerstones of my life right now. I recently deadlifted 435 lbs, which puts me in the top 5% of people in the world for that exercise, and I’ve been able to build up to that in only about 30 months of training. My most satisfying experience with exercise has definitely been when I tried out for and made the Rowing team in the country this past fall at Michigan. To have done that after my heart wasn’t strong enough to support me doing any exercise at all a few years back proved to me anything is possible. I’ve weathered the storm and come out much stronger through exercise, and I know you can too.

I definitely struggled to complete sessions from the Levine Protocol, but it is true that if you just keep pushing and try and progress a little bit each day, what you can accomplish in weeks, months, and years is unthinkable. As former US Army General Creighton Abrams said, “When eating an elephant, take one bite at a time.” 

The Levine Protocol recommends taping your goals to your bathroom mirror and reading them every day. I say do that, and then also tell your friends and family that you are going to use exercise to change your life. The commitment and motivation you will draw from yourself and their support will be enough to carry you through the tough days. It may not always be easy, but living with POTS is hard enough on its own. If you can do that, I know you have the power to change your life through exercise. Just think about how much better you’ll feel and look, how much confidence you’ll have gained, and how much more motivated you’ll be to chase other goals in the future after you’ve been killing it at the gym!

Best of luck, and reach out to me if you have any questions at all about the program, my exercise routine, or anything else mentioned in this post. I would also love to hear your exercise story and support you on your journey! I’ll let Venus Williams have the last word. “Just believe in yourself. Even if you don’t, pretend that you do, and at some point, you will.”

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How Meditation Can Transform Your Life and Your Relationship to Pain

Disclaimer: These posts are speaking from my personal experience and I’m trying to outline what has worked for me. I know everyone’s cases are different, so I want to respect that, and say up front that I know my methods my not work for others. By no means am I looking to push my experience as the only way that can work for people, nor am I trying to say that anyone is wrong or weak for not pushing through! I have tremendous respect for everyone fighting through POTS, and I am only looking to inject some more strength, resilience, knowledge, and positivity into an already incredible community. I’m also just looking to share my story and connect with others. So, thank you for reading today, and know that you are amazing, and I wish you the best on your personal journey!

When I visited the Mayo Clinic’s Pain Rehabilitation Center (PRC) about two years ago, I was looking for something practical to help me live my life fully with POTS. Medicine, compression socks, and salt could only go so far for me — I wanted something that could fundamentally change the way I was living in a positive way, without any negative side effects. The Mayo Clinic offered countless strategies, on physical, mental, and emotional levels, to help me deal with pain. I’ll be sharing everything I learned at Mayo, and what I’ve learned outside of it, through this blog. But first, I want to talk about my most powerful daily practice, something that changes me on a physical, mental, and emotional level. It is something I learned at Mayo, and something I have practiced every day since my completion of their PRC program. What is it? Meditation! Meditation has decreased my stress and anxiety levels, improved my concentration, helped my heart to stabilize its activity, assisted with my digestive problems, and helped my body in countless other ways. Most importantly, though, meditation has dramatically changed my worldview and the acceptance and appreciation I have for my circumstances.

Meditation, and specifically a practice with a focus on diaphragmatic breathing, is the most important thing I do to deal with stress, pain, and life. For the last two years, I have practiced meditation every morning for about ten minutes, and I notice a substantial difference in my overall disposition and ability to deal with stress from my practice. If I ever miss a day, I am much more likely to overthink things and stress myself out, leading to silly arguments and a bad mood. Meditation not only has incredible benefits for anyone who practices, but there are a number of benefits that can help directly with POTS symptoms. I’ll be diving into some of the fascinating research into how meditation can help the body with POTS and then I’ll share my meditation story and offer some practical ways to implement meditation into your daily life!

As most of you probably know, with POTS, there is a major dysfunction with the autonomic, or involuntary, nervous system (ANS). Within the ANS, there are two divisions: the parasympathetic and the sympathetic nervous system. The parasympathetic nervous system (PNS) is known as the “rest and digest” system and it stimulates digestion, activates various metabolic processes and helps us to relax. The sympathetic nervous system (SNS), on the other hand, is known as the “fight or flight” system and it makes your heart beat faster and stronger, opens up your airways so you can breathe more easily, and inhibits digestion.

People with POTS tend to have a high-activity sympathetic nervous system and a low-activity parasympathetic nervous system. This is why, as shown by this study,  a dominant SNS can result in heart rates getting out of control, major digestion problems, and a constant, reactionary, body state of fight-or-flight. However, diaphragmatic breathing can help to level out the systems and establish a better autonomic balance. An article published in the Journal of Psychosomatic Research shows a breathing practice can reduce sympathetic nervous system activity and increase parasympathetic nervous system activity.

Additionally, studies have linked dysfunction of the autonomic nervous system with anxiety, and we all know anxiety and stress can make our POTS symptoms worse. However, here’s some good news: a breathing practice can help to calm anxiety and stress. According to a review published in the Frontiers in Psychology Journal,

“Physiological evidence has indicated that even a single breathing practice significantly reduces blood pressure, increases heart rate variability (HRV) and oxygenation, enhances pulmonary function, and improves cardiorespiratory fitness and respiratory muscle strength.”

For POTSies who struggle with heart function,  blood flow to certain parts of the body, and physical fitness levels, diaphragmatic breathing is an essential tool in overall health and well being. Sounds awesome, right?

Diaphragmatic breathing is an essential tool for living to the fullest with POTS. I even use it to help me lift more weight when strength training, and taking big, deep, breaths will always promote positive change in your body, whether you immediately feel it or not.  The best part is, practicing diaphragmatic breathing is not at all difficult, and you can train your body to change your breathing pattern to one that mimics diaphragmatic breathing more over time.

To practice diaphragmatic breathing, you can lie down on the ground, put your hand on your stomach, and breathe in through your nose, focusing on pushing your stomach out. Then, let your stomach muscles fall inward as you breathe out through pursed lips. I’ll let the Cleveland Clinic explain it to you in better detail here. If that doesn’t work for you, a Google or YouTube search is another great way to learn how to train your breath.

Though you can perform a breathing practice on its own, or with yoga or exercise, I recommend integrating diaphragmatic breathing into a meditation practice. Meditation was a key focus at Mayo Clinic — they had us meditate during the day and we were told to use a diaphragmatic breathing practice at night before bed. They recommended a twenty minute session daily, but, as mentioned earlier, I find ten minutes in the morning does the best for me. The key is to find what works for you. In meditation, there is no wrong or right way to do it. The focus is about being present and allowing time for your mind to be on its own, without a specific focus or judgment on present emotions or happenings.

Meditation has its own treasure chest of health benefits to speak about. A Forbes article titled, “7 Ways Meditation can Actively Change the Brain” states that meditation can be as effective as antidepressants for treating depression and anxiety, can lead to size changes in areas of the brain that affect mood and well-being, and can improve concentration and attention span — after only a few days of training!

Meditation can also help to change perspective. I know I can take time every day to let my thoughts go and calm my body down, no matter where I am or what is going on. It is extremely reassuring to know that I am working on my brain and my overall health on a daily basis by meditating, and nothing can stress me out too much because I find serenity and solace in my practice.

For my personal meditation practice, there are three main resources I use. I like to be guided, and the Headspace app has been invaluable to me in helping me through my mornings. Headspace gives users a ten-day intro pack for free. Using those ten days alone, on repeat, is more than enough as a guide — I used the ten-day pack for about three months after starting. If you buy the yearly “pro” pack (about $60), you gain access to ten to thirty-day packs on topics such as getting to sleep, dealing with pain, and increasing happiness. There are options for ten, fifteen, and twenty-minute sessions, and there are “mini-packs” that are one, two, and three minutes that can help during a panic attack or a high-stress time. Another neat feature is that you can track your meditation stats through Headspace. For example, my Headspace stats show I have meditated for over 46 hours, with 285 sessions and an average duration of 10 minutes. How cool is that?

Soundcloud, the music streaming platform, is another free way to access guided meditations. Big names in meditation such as Tara Brach, Sam Harris, and Dr. Alejandro Junger all have guided meditations on Soundcloud that I use often. Additionally, tarere is all kinds of meditation music on Soundcloud that can be used as a background for a diaphragmatic breathing practice. Whether you like a calming nature sound, or prefer something more techno that can stimulate brain waves, you’ll be sure to find whatever suits your needs on Soundcloud. I recommend trying out some different background structures (music, guiding, a combination) and seeing what works best for you!

The other way I have found guided meditations is something we all use on a daily basis – Google! Just a simple Google search of “meditation for stress” or “breathing to calm down” can yield hundreds of thousands of results. Often, YouTube videos with a high number of views or websites of people who have some kind of credential are the best options to start. Calm.com is also something I’ve seen that is similar to Headspace and has free resources to help people start their practice. Give it a shot — the resources for meditation are literally endless.

It is also important to mention guided meditation is not the only way to go. Vipassana meditation and Transcendental meditation (TM) are extremely popular around the world and they use different techniques than the guided method. Both methods are taught through courses and retreats, so you can connect with other beginners to find a community for your meditation practice. Transcendental meditation has quite the community; it has been found to have evidence-based health benefits, and famous people such as Oprah Winfrey, Ellen Degeneres, Ray Dalio, Tom Hanks, and Jerry Seinfeld all practice TM and have said it’s an essential part of their lives. Furthermore, if neither of those sounds good to you, there are dozens of other ways to practice meditation from around the world, so you may fall in love with a practice that I haven’t even heard of! Again, finding what works for you is most important.

Meditation is an integral part of my day, and I have recently started to practice under the sun, outside, to get some morning sunlight and reset my circadian rhythm. The ten minutes I spend before eating or looking at my phone is the perfect way to start my day right and make sure my mind is primed to attack the day without letting stressors get in the way. In addition to meditation, I also take daily cold showers, have another breathing practice for my VO2 max capacity, and do a set of morning mobility exercises to warm up my body and work towards injury prevention. If anyone is interested, I’ll have a post about my full morning routine coming soon (it’s here).

I urge you to consider adding meditation or a breathing practice of some form into your life — the benefits are abundant! It can be a lifesaver for dealing with POTS, but the practical benefits for anyone means starting a practice is a no-brainer. As the narrator on Headspace, Andy Puddicombe, says, you should “treat” your mind daily — it’s the most important muscle in your body!

Thank you so much for your reading and support! Please let me know in the comments section what you think of this post, if you have any questions, and if there is anything you would like me to talk about in the future. I would also love to hear from you personally in the “Contact Me” section above. Thank you again and please share this post so we can help to build a community of positivity around POTS!

Barely Surviving to Fully Thriving

My journey with POTS

Disclaimer: These posts are speaking from my personal experience and I’m trying to outline what has worked for me. I know everyone’s cases are different, so I want to respect that, and say up front that I know my methods my not work for others. By no means am I looking to push my experience as the only way that can work for people, nor am I trying to say that anyone is wrong or weak for not pushing through! I have tremendous respect for everyone fighting through POTS, and I am only looking to inject some more strength, resilience, knowledge, and positivity into an already incredible community. I’m also just looking to share my story and connect with others. So, thank you for reading today, and know that you are amazing, and I wish you the best on your personal journey!

Hi, I’m Tommy. I’m a rising sophomore at the University of Michigan living with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. I have experienced many of the ups and downs of those that have been diagnosed with POTS, but today I am living a healthy, happy life. I can look back and say that I am genuinely thankful for my POTS diagnosis and know I have been shaped for the better because of it. I want to help people power through POTS, and realize that everyone is a powerful individual no matter what they are going through!

I was diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome following a concussion the summer before my junior year of high school. At first, I ignored the diagnosis. I was a high-performing student on the top academic track at my high school, and I was involved with AP classes and varsity basketball while maintaining the role of Vice President of my class. 

Just as many other 11th graders are, I was way too busy for a high schooler. Especially one with POTS. Between staying up late studying, daily workouts and training, and hours per week towards building our homecoming float, I was gradually wearing my body down, not putting thought towards taking care of myself. This built up all the way to mid-October, leading to homecoming weekend, a weekend of festivities and fun. However, on the night of the homecoming dance, instead of being out having fun with my friends at the dance, I crashed. I never left my house, and instead, I was fainting and throwing up because I had ignored my POTS diagnosis and failed to take care of myself. I had pushed my body too far, and it started to push back. 

The rest of my junior year was a blur. I spent most days in bed, watching TV, or playing video games, with brain fog, intense shoulder, back, and neck pain, and lightheadedness whenever I stood up. I never really left my house, lost my relationships with most of my close friends, and fell into a deep depression. At weekly hospital visits, I was tested for everything from brain lesions to mini seizures to whether or not I had complete motor control in my legs because of a limp in my walk. I worried that I would no longer be able to achieve the goals I once dreamed of, and I wondered if I would ever feel “good” again — I just wanted a day without pain, dizziness, or fatigue.

It’s scary, the fear that you might be losing yourself. Losing your entire identity. I had given up on life in a way because I really did not see any hope. How could I live my life if my body wouldn’t let me? One night, however, I was reading a book about investment banking. Banking is something I was interested in as a future career path, and the thought popped into my head that if I wanted to achieve my lifelong dreams, I had to start going to school. If I wanted to get into college, I had to show universities that I was making positive change. I probably did not need to be an all-AP straight A student, but just showing that I was making progress in my life and academics is all colleges need to see. I made a concrete decision that night to be the best I could be. If I wanted to change my life, I needed to put in my absolute best effort every day.

To be the best version of myself, I saw no other option but to try and live as normal a life as I could. I was in school 2-3 days a week for a few hours at a time. I was lucky to have incredible support from my parents, my guidance department, and my teachers. Though I had to drop out of my morning class in my first semester, I was able to finish the 3 classes I had signed up for in second semester (a normal student at my high school takes 4 classes). I was also in the fortunate situation of having seen my twin sister and younger brother go through a POTS diagnosis of their own. They both went to the Pediatric Pain Rehabilitation Program at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN, and I watched them return home with a “mind over matter” attitude and learned that there was no cure for POTS, only a way to live with it. I absorbed some of the strategies that helped them, such as following the Levine protocol on an exercise bike, taking daily salt and Florinef, and using the cognitive behavioral therapy principle of  “faking it til I made it.” These changes allowed me to live my life, although I was still relatively unwell and uninspired. 

After seeing the positive benefits Mayo brought to my siblings, and because I knew most of the principles of the Pain Rehabilitation Program, my parents and I made the decision to attend the 2-day Pain Rehab Program for teens the August before my junior year. My goal was to gain a “toolbox” to deal with my chronic pain and to meet other people my age with POTS. 

The Mayo Clinic was incredible. I learned cognitive behavioral therapy, strategies to help me get through bad days, and, most importantly, that there is no cure to POTS, meaning I had to live my life no matter what I was going through. I was able to talk with others who were also going through their trials with chronic pain, and we held each other accountable as we stopped our pain behaviors, attended activities together, and maintained an overall positive attitude. After Mayo, I was no longer allowed to talk about my pain. My parents couldn’t mention it either. The fascinating science behind ignoring pain lied in the concepts of neuroplasticity. By focusing on my life, I was literally rewiring my brain to ignore my “pain pathways” and establish a more productive thought stream. Chronic pain sometimes means that the actual physical cause for pain has gone away, but one’s brain can get so deeply wired that every time they have a certain thought or behave a certain way they will feel pain, no matter what the body’s physical health is like. 

I started following a consistent sleep schedule, established a morning meditation routine, and constructed an exercise plan. I started to make more plans with friends. No matter how I was feeling, I followed my schedule and kept my commitments to myself and others. I started to take control of my pain after my pain had had control of me.

It’s funny how your pain disappears once you stop feeding it. And every time it would pop back up, I would practice what I learned through cognitive behavioral therapy and my newfound meditation habit and just focus my thoughts, clear my mind, and turn my attention to what was next on my schedule. I was lucky enough to start school right after I returned home from Mayo. I still did not have a first period, but I attended every one of my other classes and did not miss a day of school in the first semester of my senior year. This was an incredible time for me. I went from chronically absent and being known as a “sick kid” to showing up every day with a smile on my face. I built up the endurance to work out six days a week, got back to being involved in my vice president role for our homecoming celebration, and played intramural basketball, leading my team to an undefeated championship season.

Despite all of those great elements of my comeback, I was still “behind” my previous self in almost every way. I couldn’t take the AP classes I wanted, couldn’t play on the varsity basketball team I had dreamed of and wasn’t able to devote as much time to my class and homecoming as I would’ve liked. Additionally, though I did not acknowledge my pain, it still showed up every day, and my body was not exactly doing me favors. At this point, I could have complained that I still had issues, that my life was harder than most kids around me. But I chose to look differently — I was doing far better than I was before, and every day was part of my constant and never-ending improvement. I kept building up positive brain changes, sticking to my guns and following my plan. My positive momentum continued all the way up until the end of high school. As vice president, I gave the opening speech at my high school graduation, and it was surreal. In just under a year, I had gone from scared of standing for too long in fear of dizziness and pain to standing confidently, representing my high school class, welcoming thousands of people to our graduation.

When applying to college, I looked to use my story as a way to set myself apart. I truly believe that the resilience I displayed and the perspective that I gained from my trials with POTS was an advantage in my life. My Common App personal statement was all about my resilience and positive change that I had gained since my diagnosis. My story helped me gain admission to the #1 Public University in the country, the University of Michigan, and the #3 Business School in the country, the Ross School of Business. 

I knew absolutely no one going to Michigan, but the challenge of making friends paled in comparison to the challenges I had faced in the past couple years. I realized I was fortunate because, with my perspective, what seemed like major problems to others were just minor issues to me. At Michigan, I tried out for and made the top club rowing team in the country, and joined a consulting club with a 2.5% acceptance rate. What was my strategy?

“Go in, knowing you can do anything you put your mind to, and knowing that any setback will end up benefitting you later on in some way.”

Trying out for clubs and organizations was literally a win-win for me: if I got in, I was suddenly a part of an awesome team like Men’s Rowing, and if I didn’t, I knew the organization probably wouldn’t have been a good fit for me and I had the opportunity to try so many other new things out! 

College has reinforced my belief in myself and raised my self-worth. Going from not being able to play sports in high school to competing at a collegiate level in a demanding sport such as rowing showed me I can do anything. Achieving a 3.9 GPA first semester at a top-ranked school after struggling to stay in class in high school showed me I can do anything. And living a life where I am in complete control, where I can say I am truly happy, has shown me I can do anything. 

As I said earlier, my journey is still far from over, and I am learning and growing every day. I have been fighting neck and back pain for the last three years and think I found an answer with a recent diagnosis of thoracic outlet syndrome. Some days, my pain will flare up, and I’ll lay on my bed and question whether I can accomplish what I want to with the unpredictability of my body. But then, I always remember: It’s not about the cards you’re dealt in life, it’s about how you play the hand. I know I have to still exercise, socialize, and live my life no matter what my body feels like. 

One could say today I am symptom-free from POTS, but I look at it as a daily practice of living my life no matter how I feel. Looking back, I am thankful for my pain and my suffering. I am now a thriving individual who takes care of their body before everything else, and I am passionate about health, fitness, and self-improvement. I love to learn about new ways to optimize my physical and mental health and performance and share those with others. Sometimes I think, how would I ever have discovered the powers of neuroplasticity or positive self-talk without POTS? 

My goal is to now use my story to educate, help, and inspire others, and build a platform to show stories of those who have powered through POTS — both by fighting through symptoms and by using their POTS to their advantage. I will be posting about everything from skills I use to combat POTS to routines I use to control my life to what I learned at the Mayo Clinic – with stories of POTS success sprinkled in. 

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